dude, i am so over this bullshit. why does everyone hate everyone and everyone fight with everyone. and EVERYONE START SHIT get over it. if you dont like something someone does. THEN FINE YOU DONT FUCKING LIKE IT. dont sit around with your friends and talk about how much you dont like it. dont do it if you dont want to. no one is makign you do anything BUT people are going to do whatever they want to do. wether you like it or not. SO FUCK OFF.
get the fuck over yourselfs. why are you people still into this shit? its getting old. stop caring about what other people do, honestly. its just drama. and NO ONE wants drama. and if you do, then get the hell out of here seriously.
i'm too busy for live journal/myspace/facebook/aim
if you want to talk to me, learn to call me. otherwise we wont talk for awhile i've been going out a lot more and spending a lot more time with the people that really really matter. if i haven't seen you recently that does not mean you dont matter by any means. i am EXTREMELY happy with the way my life is going right now though. working in the morning is getting to be a little rough while sleeping at mikes, but when i sleep at home, its still wonderful. i like my middle of the day naps w/ mike and then going to work. i've gotten semi- sucked into smoking newports and i really dont like it. i really need money. but i am happpppppppppppppy! i love everyone and everything aesifjoaishfoaishfoaihfsaosihfoasif YAY!
there are soooo many amazing things and people out there, some that i know and love, some i have no idea about. i refuse to be held down by one thing anymore. why am i letting ONE THING stop me from loving anything or anyone. one thing stop me from having everything that i am meant to have. this is stupid.
thank god i realize this now.
i love you, however you hold me down. you hold me down. you hold me down you're the echoes of my everything you're the emptiness the whole world sings at night you're the laziness in the afternoon you're the reason why I burst and why I bloom how will i break the news to you?
i just wrote out a really long entry. and then deleted it. i don't know how to say what i need to say. other than i miss you so much. and i know you're everything i've always wanted. and now you're gone. i know we wont be friends. i know i wont see you. it's like i've lost everything all at once.
edit: i hate to admit that he is so right: Jeffagainstcity: thats really good - sometimes its just good to know you dont have to be with the wrong person
and I'll fly, fly across the sky, and I’ll leave, leave it all behind, if you’d be here, here with me tonight, I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine
everything is going well, I need a new job. something with more hours, but still in the child care industry simply because i can't imagine doing anything else with my life. it's offically what i want to do for the rest of my life. something with children. i can't imagine not working with my kids anymore thought. or being without my coworkers now, i love them! i love everything about my job except the lack of hours i get. i love everything about my friends. they're great. we fight sometimes. and i know i dont always appreciate everything they do for me, but they hold me together. i love you guys. everythings great. i just need to chill out sometimes.
i refuse to give into my blues that's not how it's gonna be and i deny the tears in my eyes i don't want to let you see that you have made a hole in myheart and now i've got to fool myself i'll get over you, i know i will i'll pretend my ships not sinking and i'll tell myself i'm over you
I put my hand out would you put yours in mine.. don't let your fears try to tear us apart i wanna get closer to you i'm on the outside looking in.. i wanna get closer to you, closer to you i wanna get closer to you, closer to you this is bigger, bigger than you or me.
so, it's day 3 in gainesville. we left home on the first at like 7:30pm. after i got off work, we drove straight through, stopping a few times for food and gas and cigs. other than that it was a straight shot. we got here around 10 or so in the morning on the 2nd. cori and I were so unbelievably tired when we got to jessicas apartment in gainesville. so for most of the second we layed around took naps watched movies and ate sushi and pizza. went to bed real early. yesterday we woke up. hung out most of the day cori and i went to publix and got some food and subs and we hung out while jessica studied. then later we went over cori's friend ronnies house and hung out over there until like 2 am. that was fun, good to get out of the house and see some people. today cori and i woke up and dropped jessica off at school, and came back here to hang out and now we're taking showers and getting ready to begin our day. maybe we'll go shopping or other things til it's time to pick up jessica and then I dunno what we'll do. ryan said that him and mike might stay tonight in gainesville, so if they do we'll probably hang out with them. and then tomorrow is a good day, we see self against city, rookie of the year, socratic, and my getaway at the 1982 bar. wednesday we leave gainesville and make the 2 hour drive to channings in tampa. i'm sooooooooo excited to see her. and we'll stay wednesday night with her. after that we had to west palm. and the rest is kinda up in the air. orlando, jacksonville maybe. who knows.
basically, i love florida, and i dont ever want to go home. i missed being here. and i do not miss maryland by any means.
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